…276lbs to go! When I look at my weight loss like that, it seems insurmountable – just bloody crazy. So I don’t look at it like that! I cannot allow myself to focus on that big number as it is soul destroying. My mini targets were little 3st blocks that I had broken my big number down into, but even they can be a bit daunting at times, so I took a leaf out of the wonderful Minxy’s book and just try and focus on the next shiny sticker, which is 4.5lbs away!
This mornings weigh-in was okay with another 2.5lbs off. So that means a total loss now of 12st 9.5lbs which, as I keep being reminded by well-wishers, is more than a lot of people weigh! I never know whether to be pleased when they tell me that I have lost more than they weigh…or embarrassed…or what emotion to have really? It seems crazy that I was carrying around another human, and even crazier that I still have another two to lose. But crazy is me and I am so pleased with progress so far! I was reminded this morning though about how far I have come as I struggled to pick up my nephew. He is only two and I have no idea of his weight – he’s not overweight at all – but it made me realise how much pressure I put on my body!
When I think like this it either goes one of two ways – I feel happy as I have made a huge dent in my excess weight and am making progress, or I feel a bit down about letting it get to that stage. Really though, what point is there in dwelling on what it was, surely it is better to focus on what is, and what will be? What is, is that I have lost a big fat chunk of weight and feel so much better than this time last year. What will be is…well, what will be is incredible to think about…so I try and focus on the incredible and the exciting! And I also take a look at my progress chart on the Slimming World website, and I had a look at my weight loss jars today…
…and the gap between the ‘to lose’ and the ‘lost’ jar is getting smaller…just like my bum is. Little things like this keep me going. They may sound silly to some, but the Slimming World graph and the weight loss jars, and my motivation board all give me something positive to focus on…I can see the progress.
Anyway, I am continuing on my theme of onwards and downwards! So this was my haul this morning…
…along with my 2.5lb loss, I was awarded ‘Slimmer of the Month’ and got a shiny sticker, a fridge magnet and a certificate! My lovely consultant also gave me a lemon Alpen Light bar as she knew I was struggling to find them, so that shall be enjoyed over the next couple of days.
Group was good fun today. Well, perhaps fun isn’t the right word, maybe entertaining. Entertaining as my niece and nephew were there…and were full of beans! My sister and her hubby rejoined today (I am thrilled!) and so I ended up with two little helpers on the signing-in desk whilst ‘Mum and Dad’ had a chat with our consultant. My nephew was smiling sweetly at the women and using his newfound phrase that he thinks will woo the ladies…”hey chickadee” and his bright blue eyes and blonde hair won him a few admirers! My niece was sitting next to me keeping track of my sums and munching on a big bowl of fruit. So yes, entertaining! Half term is finished at the end of the week, so she will be back at nursery and we can keep him quiet with the iPad next week…neither of them are calm and quiet…more like boisterous and good fun! My niece can sit fairly quiet for the duration of group, but my nephew is still too young to have any idea that we need to ‘shush’ at times. But we are used to kids at the group and so it was all good. I just want to my sister and her hubby to feel welcome / comfortable so that they stay and get as much benefit from being there as I have…yet I know that they worry about the kids interrupting the flow of the group!
We had a discussion about BBQ food and how we tend to go overboard at them. And my dodgy tum – as a result of too much food rather than badly cooked food – can testify to that! I mean, you don’t often have chicken, steak and salmon in one sitting…yet when at a BBQ it becomes perfectly acceptable to do this. We spent a fortune at the weekend on BBQ food and most of it ended up be given to the dogs we all own! I am going to take a leaf out of my consultants book now and choose two items for a BBQ. We are having a joint Fathers Day / WLB Birthday celebration – as they fall on the same day – and are planning a BBQ for this. My thoughts are nice big chicken breasts with a tikka marinade and piece of steak! Obviously there will be loads of salad, and my Mum makes a mean potato salad which is Slimming World friendly…mmmm…already looking forward to it. You can take the fat off the WLB but you can’t stop me getting excited about a BBQ. In fact, I remember when we moved into our house; our lovely neighbours said, “you are obsessed with BBQs”…it was the joy of having a garden and non-shite neighbours; I was BBQ’ing everything!
One of the guys at group is so close to hitting his target – I am so excited and hope that he gets it next week. He comes to group with his two sisters and they are a lovely bunch of people. He was a ‘Man of the Year’ and his before pic is amazing…it just doesn’t look like him and I don’t think I can actually remember him looking like that. I guess it just goes to show how powerful a ‘before’ pic can be! He is in competition with his sisters as they are all fairly close to target – I do like a bit of healthy competition and hope they all get there very soon.
Pizza Lady was fairly quiet today…a few eye-rollers but nothing spectacular, bless her! I would love nothing more than to see her hit target, as would everybody there, but she just goes for the morning out really I think. I was given an apology today from a lady who last week wasn’t happy when I said that she was small – as in fatness levels, not height or personality! She did bite my head off, but it didn’t phase me at all really and I thought nothing of it until she apologised today. When I explained that what I meant was that, to me, she always looks so polished and well turned out, and not that overweight at all, she was pleased I think. She explained that she gets grief from her partners family about her weight…I thought, “send them over to my house”…she is probably a size 12/14 at the most and I think they need a kick up the arse for being awful to her! And, I suppose I need to be aware that just because she is incredibly small compared to me, she might not feel small compared to her standards…the majority of the population is small compared to me, so I think my views are a bit skewed. 
My lovely lady today made me chuckle. I don’t think she had had a very good week and then mentioned that obviously it was raining, and that this has soaked in and made her weigh more! I have often wondered if getting weighed with wet hair makes a difference?! Bless her! I did share a similar thought when I got on the scales this morning…”I’ve got socks on!”, I thought as I looked at my feet…I seriously doubt a pair of bloody socks would make a difference – but try telling that to a lady on a weight loss mission!
Anyway, I won’t regale you with tales of my day, as it was pretty much group and then home, so nothing to get excited about. Although I did get a bit wistful when a horsey email came through, as I would love so much to be able to wear a pair of these…
…perhaps one day, although I am well aware that my arse will never be sculpted like that one; a long top will be in order!
Breakfast: Banana.
Lunch: Mushroom stir fry with low fat Supernoodles.
Dinner: Two wholemeal rolls (2 x HEB) with Southern Quorn burgers (5 syns), salad and roast butternut squash and sweet potato.
Snacks: French Fries (24 syns)!
I do love my fakeaway burgers! I decided to partner them with roast butternut squash and sweet potato chunks…but kind of wished I had gone for the full-monty and had syn free chips! I like variety, but sometimes the only thing that does the trick is a plate of chips – and if I can lose weight and eat stuff like syn free chips and cheese toasties, I have nothing to complain about. The rest of the day was really straightforward – nothing wild and wonderful…but I am planning a Mexican bean stew this week…so watch this space!
Exercise: Not much really! The new plan starts tomorrow though. 15 minutes of BodyPump and hopefully 15 minutes of treadmill if I can manage it; whatever the treadmill time deficit, I will make up with boxing though…as I am determined to do my 30 minutes tomorrow. My other half is joining me too. Whilst I am on the treadmill, he will be doing weights and visa versa – as I am keen for him to remain healthy. He is 6′+ and 13st, in good condition really, but eats junk and smokes…so I need to work on him too. WLB will be whip-cracking…good help me if he enjoys it too much! I am aware that this exercise could impact my weight loss – as I tend to find that my body goes into shock for a couple of weeks – but I am in this for the long haul and so am thinking about long term rather than immediate benefits.
Thank you for reading today’s ramblings – and have a wonderful week!
Weight Loss Bitch xxx